Empressjournee Jamaica

Today- I Let His Love Take Over Me


Today I did not want to explain how I feel. I wanted to scream, beat the ground
Like there was no tomorrow and let you hear my thunder, throw something
Against the wall, as I felt the heaviness of this earthly sorrow.

Today I did not want to explain how I feel. I wanted to scream and scream,
Muffle my mouth before I said something hurtful and Mean,
As you keep insisting that we should pray and pray
And I knew God understood everything that I was feeling.

Today I did not want to explain how I feel
Or be amongst anyone that resemble the voice of pain
Professing love for me—today I tried to be silent
wanted total silence and we stop playing this tic for tac
Foolish game, yet you—the caller, felt that I did not
want you to share the greatness of His Majesty.

Today I wanted to scream and scream,
I didn’t think you hear me. Is this a dream?
I find myself explaining the unexplainable—foolish
Of me, as I hung up the phone, I breathe in and out,
Push down the hurt the ache within and say,
Stop, enough of this guilt trip!
And I began to call out the Lord’s name,
Even when I felt like screaming again and again,
‘Help me God and please father, silence the pain
That is aching me!! Today, Today I wanted,
I really, really, wanted to scream and scream
instead I let His love take over me.

Empress M.

About the author


I am a proud mother, grandmother, poet, writer, performer, a singer, great cook, a lover of unique fashionable earrings, and love to wear & dress in a unique artistic fashion.
I was born in Jamaica West Indies, immigrated to the United States of America at the tender age of ten. I've had the great privilege working for the Human Resource Admin, taught at an Head-Start and move on as an uprising reggae singer to perform as an open act for various great singers like Dennis Brown, Calypso Rose and others I admired. My career ended because of an overwhelming challenge of self-worth and depression I was facing; that took a long time to over come. However, the support of love ones and guidance of God, I was able to rise again and excel. I was able to connect more with my children and grand children to fulfill my destiny. I also had the great opportunity to meet Dr. Bettye Shabazz, before she passed on, and other great leaders. I know all could not occur without the support of love ones and most of all the God of breath. I am growing everyday as I hope that I will be successful on developing a higher Christ consciousness of my mind. The work is hard however through the love of Christ I am embracing the love of self, honoring myself more and developing my character. I won't give up on myself. I consider myself a wildflower that love to bring joy to others. I am also working on strengthening all areas of my spiritual gifts. Thank you for reading my poetic thoughts. Peace and Blessings!


  • Hi Anthea,

    I enjoyed reading your blog. I love the name too! I found your reflections on some of the well-intentioned, but idiosyncratic parenting styles of some Jamaicans to be very funny. I remember some of those shoes from my primary school days that I just could not “mash up”. Of course, our Jamaican expression “mash up” has now taken on a whole new meaning in the technological sphere.

    • Thank you Yasmin.
      Here’s hoping you will keep connected, be inspired and share again!!